My brain is divided. The Left hates the Right; and the Right hates the Left.
As Inauguration Day is nearing, the political comments are heating up. With the tragedy in Connecticut still fresh in our minds, politics continues to turn times that need healing into times where our emotions can be toyed with . Politicians on both sides take full advantage of that.
With this new year, I am trying to do several things; one of which, is to not worry so much. So how does God start of 2013 with me? My pastor delivers a sermon on...you guessed it....not worrying. My mind is politically wired. It is hard for me to see things without a political perspective attached. Things I understand and things I don't understand come with politics attached. It is hard for me to not worry.
I don't understand how someone who is a Christian can support or try to defend abortion. President Obama, who I believe is a Christian, defends abortion.
According to ontheissues.org:
Voted NO on prohibiting minors crossing state lines for abortion. (Mar 2008) This speaks for itself
Voted against banning partial birth abortion. (Oct 2007) How does a Christ follower vote against this?
Blocked IL law: Born Alive Infant Protection Act. (Oct 2011) How does a Christ follower block something like this?
Opposed born-alive treatment law because it was already law. (Oct 2008) Has he opposed a law concerning the right to abortion because Roe v. Wade is already law. I don't think so. I could be wrong.
How does a Christ follower vote for someone, anyone, who agrees with the above? I know how in my head; but I can't reconcile this with my heart.
A half of a billion taxpayer dollars goes to Planned Parenthood every year. 1 abortion every 94 seconds. Abortion is legal via a decision by 7 of 9 supreme court justices. I'm tired of Christians or "the vast right wing conspiracy" getting the blame for the abortion debate. It's a liberal talking point. It's what they always go back to. Heck, the entire Democratic National Convention in 2012 was glorifying a women's so called right to terminate a pregnancy. People cheering. It made my stomach turn. Overturning the law won't end the debate or stop abortions. We must go deeper. Love and show compassion. But how?
I have two children. I had one miscarriage. I think I feel so strongly about this; because I don't understand how one can hear the heartbeat or feel the kick of an unborn child; and then say it's not a child. I had to have a procedure after the miscarriage that is essentially the same procedure as an abortion, but, clearly, for a different reason. It was a long emotional struggle to get over that procedure even though I had to have it done, or would risk infection. I couldn't imagine someone doing it on purpose. I'm not talking about women who have had abortions they regret; or women who are raped. I believe they need to be shown love and compassion; and receive help if they need it. Do not get me wrong, I am 100% against abortion, but I would hope that most women don't want to have one. I am talking about the woman who has two children; and then says if she gets pregnant with a third she will terminate. I have actually heard this. There are many ways to prevent pregnancy; and no they shouldn't be taxpayer funded (again, thinking politically). I know I am supposed to pray for those women as well. How do I do that; and mean it? How do I trust my heart to be true concerning a prayer for them?
And now, a well known Christian pastor had decided to forgo giving the
benediction at President Obama's inauguration because some leftist
group found quotes he said about gay "rights" 15 years ago. I
challenge anyone to tell me what right I have that a gay person does
not. I'm not intolerant. I just know and believe what the Bible says
and will not treat it as a "living" document; that changes meaning as
time changes. Again, I am supposed to love and show compassion. How do
I do that with someone who won't listen?
I am supposed to pray for my leaders. How do I do that when I believe they are trying to orchestrate the demise of, albeit having its problems, the greatest country on the planet? Intentionally stirring up division among the wealthy and poor. It, quite frankly, sickens me. I'm tired of people who work and make a lot being vilified. I am not one of those people, but I can't seem to find in the Bible where it says the government should take from one class and give to another. It is very easy to quote Matthew 12:17 or Romans 13:1; when you are benefiting from government policies.
Do you know the Bible says? "For even when we were with you, we gave you this rule: "If a man will not work, he shall not eat." 2 Thessalonians 3:10
I will do as the Bible commands, but it frustrates me that people who are able to work will use the ballot box to steal money from one group of people in order to give it to another. I thought the Bible commanded me to help the poor; not the government on my behalf. It breaks my heart to leave my children at daycare; and know my tax
dollars are funding some who refuse to work; and coming soon, contraception.
So how do I pray about these things and mean it? This is a struggle for me. It's not that I don't want to pray for the President, etc., I just don't know the words to say.
I'm not perfect. I don't have all the answers. I am a sinner who lives in a fallen world, but I am supposed to love my neighbor. I want speak the Truth in love; and I am admitting I need help with that. Please pray for me to be able to figure this out.
I started this blog for and about my boys. I think of them and their future every time I post something, whether it is evident or not. My hope is that it will fade from being mostly political to something more inspiring for them. To know how their mommy felt about things that may affect them later on; and that she went from being worrisome to completely free of burdens. You know, to practice what she preaches!
My brain is divided. The Left hates the Right; and the Right hates the Left. With God's help, they will someday get along.
